Time Passes

The title says it all.  I realized I have thought about my blog often, and yet when I looked at it the other day realized it had been since May that I last wrote.

May! 

Initially the delays were due to a trip for Mother's Day weekend up north to visit family.  Then as time clicked by it seemed like I had little to say and then too much time elapsed.

Recently I realized the reason I was writing the blog got lost somewhere and I cared more about what someone thought I was writing about, "Was it interesting?", "Entertaining?", "Important enough?".

It no longer became cathartic.  So I decided to come back and write what I want to.  What is going through my head at the time.  Hoping it will help quiet the voices a little.

For the last several months Steve, my husband, has been looking for work.  Why is there so much sigma associated with that.  He was laid off, nothing to do with his performance, but the same situation that so many people are facing today, corporate changes, etc...blah, blah, blah.  It reminds me of one of my favorite movies. "You've Got Mail"  Where Tom Hanks character is talking about how it "It isn't personal it's business",  and Meg Ryan says, "It's personal to me."  It is sad because I see both sides.  You can't take away someones job and assume it isn't personal for someone but understanding that if they don't make changes, downsizing, whatever, it could affect more than a few people. 

I have struggled with feeling a bit guilty.  I have a job, I have a great job.  Just got a promotion, a raise, and yet to bring attention to that makes me feel like I could be making Steve feel worse.  He knows, I know, it isn't his fault for him not getting that 2nd interview, or not finding that perfect job.  Knowing that and feeling that are so different.

Steve has decided to stop putting fate into someone elses hands and has decided to take his "side" business and make it full time.  I am proud of him for going outside his comfort zone. 

A little less light hearted with this one, but next time I will get back to food and fun.  

This week I made a pinterest recipe which I will share and also trying homemade tortillas on Thursday.  Will have to see how those turn out.